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I'm so happy. I've haven't felt this happy in a long time. A year and a half, roughly. I really miss this. For once I don't have to fake my smile. Or if it's real, the feeling doesn't just fade away. My heart has been racing for a while. I feel high, pretty much. Taking pictures of myself, I noticed a real difference. I looked genuinely happy. I feel like I have something to live for now. I've finally woken up. The delusions are gone. I don't feel trapped anymore. I don't feel like I'm hurting anybody anymore. I feel like I can legit live and have something to look forward to in a few years. If I do end up moving, it's God's will. But the last thing I want you guys to do is worry. I'll be fine. And please, please, I hope you'll be okay if I move away. You two still will have each other. Don't jump to conclusions with anything. Don't assume just because I'm leaving that I'll forget you two. Everything happens for a reason, yeah? I feel so content. As if my prayers have been answered. After a year, I've realized how much I've changed. In maturity, mostly. And I know I still have a long way to go in my stupid phase, but I'm one step closer. All these conflicts around me, all these people not believing in me, all these days without anybody...I'm still happy. That's how I am. Joyful. Always have been. But now I can finally show it. And hopefully in a few years, if it be the Lord's will, I'll be living my life joyously with somebody.
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whybro.
yespls.
the texture and buoyancy of this lily pad suits my tastes quite perfectly. if you'd like we can hop down the ol' trail where senor aslan was slain in a romantic matter and kiss the bees and the eagles along with it. if you will, will. will?
Good News
Lol. Don't listen to the title--
So I just needed to address something, but I wasn't really sure how to. I don't wanna start any anger with either of you. So I'm gonna just start it off with: you two gots to chill. I know you guys went from seeing each other every day to not at all, but I can't help but overhear your drama.
Cecil, you're freakishly upset because you don't see him, and you're overthinking to the ABSOLUTE MAX. "Is this punishment?" you said. Erm, no girl, it's life. Stuff happens and sometimes you can't see each other.
Jordananan, you...sigh. Listen. I don't want to assume anything here, but I have a feeling you'
Rant 2
All I did was ask a question. A simple question. After a year I thought they would've at least given it some consideration. And somehow they still turned it over on me. I'm doing just fine where I am, he said. If I don't get enough social time at all the events I go to, I have a problem, he said. All public schools are full of bullies. Just public schools, father? Told them about the bullying, after keeping it hidden for over three months. She hugged me, cried for me, but she's on her period, so I expect her to be overemotional. But him?:
"Who's bullying you? Do I need to go down there and beat them up." Yelling.
All talk, father. You'r
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I don't like the person I'm becoming.
It's strange to actually say it, because I've been feeling this for a while. But this week I forgot about that feeling I had since it was hidden away in my overwhelming high of happiness -- which is still lingering. I see myself as a lot of things. Not too many negative nor positive. I don't hate myself anymore. That's a good thing in most eyes, but I think not hating myself is where this started. I see myself as quite joyful. I feel like I care more than most people. I think I've learned to be wiser and how to teach people to be smarter than I was. But since I've stopped hating myself, I've seen tha
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